Normal

So it's deffinately been a bit different in my life the past six months, hell the past few years, but particularly the past six months. I moved up to New York City because it was and still is my dream. Some days are harder then others and there are some easy ones as well. I used the first 5 months to settle in get aquainted and just live an exsistance. The new year came and I was ready to go, but quickly got bogged down with the month of January. See in New York, January shouldn't even exsist because of the umbrella of gloom shading it from any kind of procutivity. I basically slept and worked, and ate ice cream. Work is slow, making it almost impossible to do anything. It is now February and things are changing and I'm in love with life again, the city and I had a rough patch, but we have managed to reconcile and are madly in love! I've decided to put my life back on track, work my ass off participate in life again. Since everything is in Shanes name, he has been taking care of all bills, well I took apon myself to start paying them online, and you know what that felt great. I've been keeping up with cleaning and being tidy, everyday maintenance and it makes me feel like a person again. I don't go out much and I'm trying to curb my appetite for spending money on meaningless crap! I've decided also to get back to faith, not that it wasn't there but it was a tiny sidenote for a long time. Since making that decision I've also felt better. I've had a better attitude at work, which makes it so much easier to go. I'm embarking on a journey with that, i'm loaded with questions and a little weary, but I've asked for a bit of guidance from my brother and feel so lucky to have him! I have learned it is easy to be miserable, because there is so much company there. For the most part people are unhappy, especially people in the restaraunt industry, they can tear you down quickly. I may not love my job, but that's all it is and it will allow me to achieve my dream, so I am pretty thankful that I have it. It also gives me freedom to be crazy and have fun and make good money. And one of my favorite people ever I met through there! Life is incredible if you wake up and live it, sometimes I guess you need a rest, but my slumber is through and I'm ready to run full speed ahead!