Ms. Fockler

It's official I am Ms. Paige Fockler again. I was a little taken back when it was completely done with, that an overwhelming gloom hit me. I know what I did was the right decision, but I also loved him very much and he was best friend. I am lonely up here sometimes, it's the longest time I've been single and although I am happy it can get a bit drafty. It's the first time that I haven't liked anyone at all(well except for unavailable men) and I so like the feeling of liking! It's also the first time I've thought that no one will measure up to him, that I will be able to be as close to someone and feel wonderful. I know there was a lot of displeasure but none was based on him, but me and where I wanted to be. Did I give up to early? I truely don't think that is the case but it could be. Am I in a huge slump? I would say it's a bit closer to the truth, but I don't know. I don't need a relationship it would muddy things up, but I kind of want one, I'm ready and I want to apply my skills!